It’s interesting how during your performance you express different characters that even if many, seem to belong to a unique identity. Could this be translated into a maturation of the ego? Which feelings are expressed during this transformation?
The whole performance is definitely about a maturation. It's about becoming a woman, becoming independent and free. The different feelings are: ingenuous, playful, inquisitively, proud, ashamed, defenseless, depressed, paralyzed, yearningly, protected, fearless. It’s a process from the light beginning (birth), to the first playful steps (childhood), to discovering one’s own sexuality to being sexually excessive to being ashamed and at last becoming free and "grown up“ - whatever this means...
It seems evident that your work is closely connected with the female body. What is your relationship with it, what drives you to explicit the contradictions?
I wanted to create a performance that's without words, concentrated on the body language, saying everything in silence but very clear. In April this year I spent one month in the Swedish forest to create this piece. I played with colors, first with lots of sketches, then I discovered medicine books and started to draw organs especially the heart. I went inside the body and did research about the functions and connections of everything. At the same time I started to create a storyline. The first scene that came in my mind was a car accident I saw ten years ago on the highway in France. The car of a young happy family crashed with a truck and a few seconds they were turned around in front of us...everything broken. The woman crawled out of the broken car and even if she had an accident she looked so elegant and beautiful. The only thing strange was her left shoe that was twisted at her foot. This picture is very clear in my mind and I took the energy I feel when I think of this to create my performance. I played with no shoes, flat shoes and high heels in my rehearsals to see how different I feel and behave with them and therefore came to the point where I wanted to show a woman in her development in different phases, from being a child to becoming a woman.
I must admit that the moment I found most interesting is when you hide in the angle and defenselessly begin to wear the raincoat. As if it brought you to an acceptance of a new role. How do you interpret this? Would you say it’s necessary to belong to a certain role to be able to be free to be yourself?
I think there is no certain role you should belong to. Freedom for me means to decide what is good for yourself and this means something different to each of us. The moment when I start to wear the trench-coat is the moment where I decide to take responsibility for myself, for the goals I have, for the mistakes I made, for all the fear and the excitement. It's a moment of change and changing means for me freedom. If you take the image of the accident again: even if you are in a big car crash, you can take all your power to come out of this and to go further with all the wounds but stronger. I want to encourage other women to follow their intuition and instincts, to be strong and be themselves. To find their "trench-coat" that protects them. The trench-coat is like a skin. Before I put it on I was naked, you could see all my organs with the paint on my body. I was vulnerable but then I took the decision to help myself. It's a process to find your own skin but it’s worth it.
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